watching Biggest Loser and eating cookies

Ironic much?

I know this week is supposed to be fun and exciting, but I'm not feeling it yet.

Brian's been out of town a lot the past couple weeks. Zachariah is gone for 8 days and Brian's out of town again. It's just me and Selah Grace.

It's been fun. I mean, she is sooooo cute. And it's easy to run errands without having to drag ZZ around. (he's not the best shopping buddy) I was also able to get all my Christmas shopping finished.

BUT. I miss my boys and how much fun and energy they bring around here.

And, SG had a bad day today. She had quite a spectacular meltdown at Joann's today while I was waiting at the cutting counter. (although, once again, they opened up a new line for me...ha!) And I get that people want to help and offer their diagnosis of why she is crying, because, for the LOVE, she has a dramatic cry - but omg for the thousandth time ... she is not hungry. I promise. And thanks for the opportunity to breastfeed in your back office, but it's really not necessary. Unless I can go back there with a good book and you would like to babysit for a bit. And I'd like a water with 2 cubes of ice please.

So, when she finally went to sleep tonight. And I found myself watching Biggest Loser and eating some yummy applesauce cookies I made for myself. I ate the first batch. Then I went to get *just one more* and realized I left the 2nd batch in the oven and they were burned. Probably a good thing since I have 20 pounds to lose. And as healthy as "applesauce cookies" sound, there was a whoooooole lot of shortening in there. And sugar.

So, then I decided to get on my gym's website and write down each class I was going to take STARTING MONDAY. I had it all planned out when I remembered my gym membership is on hold until Feb 3.

So, I decided that Monday would, instead, be my official start date to start the Jillian Michael's 30-day Shred dvd that I hope to unwrap on Christmas. I am trying to round up an accountability partner somewhere because, let's face it - who actually gets through 30 whole days?!



Anyways, the plan for the rest of the night is to make Selah Grace some baby uggs. I found some cute material to make a black pair and a brown pair. For $26/yard, these better be really stinkin cute. The first boot I made looks nothing like a shoe, much less a boot. But I had a hard time concentrating over the screaming. Hopefully the 2nd try will go better.

And if I have time, I got some cute material to make a dress that would look really great with uggs. The only bad thing is that I don't have a pattern. It's all in my head. And I don't know how it will turn out, but if it's really ugly then it will work in our favor that she outgrows everything too quickly.

I can have a wild imagination when it comes to sewing. And remodeling. Rarely do things come to fruition (and when they do, rarely do they turn out like I thought they would), but it doesn't stop me from dreaming. Last night I drew out a whole new kitchen design for our house. Brian asked me if I had any idea how much that would cost. I think we could do the whole thing ourselves! I mean, how much skill do you need to knock out some walls and move around some cabinets? He said something about needing a new support beam, but gosh that's just a pesky little detail. He's so cautious.


So, really, this blog has no point. Just a way for me to "talk." I should take this time to get the million pics off my camera before the holidays. But it makes me miss my ZZ-baby.

I am looking forward to Saturday when my little family is all together again. And Sunday when we celebrate Christmas.


ETA: Oh my GAWSH!!! I just finished her boots and they turned out really cute! I made a black pair and a brown pair with faux fur. TOO CUTE. Can't wait to try them on SG!
And speaking of the little darling... she went to sleep like an angel tonight and I just wanted to climb right into her bed and snuggle with her. Sweet sweet baby.
It's 1:37am... what in the heavens am I doing still awake? Good night!