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Well, Monday ended up being a bust.

Just a really down down day for me.

I had to make dr appts for Selah Grace. And fill out lots of paperwork with oodles of medical history, permission for photos of her rash to be used, and just the realness of it really stunk. We got into the opthamologist fairly quickly (about 2 weeks), but the geneticist appt might not be until December. And I had to track down all the people who have seen her so that any records they have can be released. It was emotionally draining.

And I'm not a big crier. But tears just keep spilling out of my eyes. And sometimes I don't even know why.

And so we only go out when I can just emotionally turn off. If someone says something, it's easier just to be surface-y. I'm not a good verbal person. That's more Brian. We joke that any of our arguments would go so much better if he could speak and I could write.

So, any plans to get out of the house were scrapped. Zac and I watched two movies together and Selah Grace slept most of the day.


Tuesday, I picked myself up and we ventured out. Zac had counseling and co-op. We stopped by Brian's work, which was fun. We even went to Walmart. Zac was a superstar and Selah Grace was awesome. I thought I looked okay, for having a week-old baby, but then in the middle of co-op, I realized I had spaghetti straps on, and the dress code is pretty strict on everyone having sleeves. Oops. Other than that - a successful day for us all.


Today, another down day. I went to bible study, but mostly just for Zac to go. It ended up being a volunteer day, so I got to be in the infant room. Which was a blessing because I didn't have to really talk to anyone, and I just walked around with Selah Grace in my sling.

Tonight we have choir, and I volunteer there... so we'll be there, too. Guess I need to get an attitude adjustment between now and 4:00.



Yesterday and today, I kept seeing Selah Grace's rash. I hadn't noticed it for a while. I think because she was so bundled up all the time. But we spent time at the playground yesterday and it was so hot... and I unbundled her. And there it was. On her legs. Which should be soft baby skin.

And it made me so mad.



A friend called me this morning and all she wanted to talk about was the regular old normal baby stuff. And I was so thankful. She never brought it up. She laughed at my stories of milk-over-production (Selah Grace will never starve, that's for sure) and commented about my patience with Zac (very gracious compliment as he was making me bananas this morning).

I live for Brian to come home from work. He's been so busy trying to catch up, though. I feel bad that he goes from work stress to any kind of home stress. He walks in and Zac is ALL OVER HIM. It's a little much even for me to watch. Zac wants to play outside. Brian wants to hold Selah, who is wanting me, who is already crying.

Thank goodness we are getting meals. I seriously don't know what we'd do without them.


In the midst of all this, I'm really trying to make a better effort to be thankful. (probably doesn't sound like it!)

I saw a quote yesterday, The One Way has several lanes.

And I keep veering into the Pity Party Lane.

Today, I'm thankful for...



1. Very silly dancing with my sweet boy











2. Reminders that both my boys are home...




3. A husband who does laundry




4. A meal from friends, cleaned up in a hurry for before-bedtime-tickles




5. Seeing my baby sleep in a cradle that I once slept in





6. And that Zac still hangs out in




7. "Mommy? Can I hold my sister?"





8. Thoughtful gifts!!





9. Colder weather means baseball takes the place of swimming







10. A sweet cuddly little boy who still loves bedtime stories and snuggles




11. Seeing my husband and our baby girl



12. Wet little footprints after bathtime




And I'm SOOOO thankful for my beautiful children. Here are Zac's pictures (the ones I picked up during labor...ha!). Didn't they turn out SOOOOOOOOO CUTE?!??!?!????











And the sweet princess we all love so much...